I am finally in a good place in my life; spiritually, mentally, and physically for expanding our family by one at a minimum. Although the decision does not come lightly. Bringing life into this crazy world comes with some additional planning under normal circumstances. More so if laws change in the next coming months.
[Trigger Warning- Sexual Childhood Trauma] Skip to the bracket below labeled Happier Topic
I don't do politics on this blog and the next two paragraphs are going to come quite personal and political in nature. Although I would feel amiss not stating my view as a person with a uterus and as 1, of the 1 in 4 women raped in their lifetime. I am not afraid and I am not ashamed of what happened to me as a child. Although I didn't need this healthcare procedure, it was always there if I did ever need to have it done. Abortion is necessary healthcare, as birth control and other contraceptive measures do have chances of failure. Nothing is 100% effective when it comes to medicines or vaccines, although it does help your chances. I also take contraception as a means to deal with PMDD (Pre-Menstrual Dysphoric Disorder, I have every symptom on the list. So hormones help me control my depression with intrusive thoughts and anxiety that had developed from said aforementioned childhood trauma. This means that my mental health might become more challenging when trying to deal with hormone fluctuations that happen with pregnancy.
With starting this parenthood journey later in life, the chances are higher than the abortion could need to be done to save my life. Anything can happen during the procreation process after fertilization and we doing our best to be prepared but hopeful. Starting the parenthood journey at 38 was not my original plan. Although whisper your plan to the universe, and watch the Creator laugh. My husband and I are making the necessary plans if a national ban happens. We understand we have more privilege in this matter than many. We would prefer the current access is allowed to stay in place and will make decisions in our power to help. Although it is foolish to hope and not make preparations. So we are planning, with lots of hope for the future. There is a possibility the window for children has passed but you never know until you try. We are doing the responsibility of getting beneficiary benefits updated, and have a Will created for me. You just never know it's a potentially dangerous business procreating. Just ask medieval women before modern medicine, they managed but it's still risky.
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So with the possible life change, in the next year or so. I am giving those in the SCA a heads up, from an activity standpoint. It means that if successful, you will not be seeing me at events for quite some time. As I take my health and my future child's health very seriously. That means I will do what I can to protect myself and my family from illness. My research will slow down and there might be a possible hiatus. More details when things are more definite on this front.
Although I will be planning to go to Fall 2022 events at the end of 2022 possibly early 2023 with local gatherings in this mix. If there was any assistance you need from me or had thoughts on award recommendations now is the time to get those in. Not beating around the bush on this, as I'd rather be honest than folks find out second-hand or afterward.
As we don't know when things will happen, time will be of the essence. I will still post updates right here if anything of significance occurs. There is a possibility conceiving might be a faster process than one would plan. My family is a fertile bunch when nature is allowed to take its normal course. So lots to digest on this Mother's Day, hoping I get to celebrate it as an expectant mother next year. New life roles are exciting and looking forward to creating my masterpiece. We plan on putting a lot of ourselves into the process ;-) Yes, the puns help.
Hopeful for the Future,
Marrin
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